His grace and mercy found me in my deepest despair and misery.
by VANESSA WHITE
His love is vast and steadfast it is more than what my broken-heart was searching for, I searched for many things that left me empty, broken and miserable. His grace and mercy found me in my deepest despair and misery. I was a slave to sin, I couldn’t get out of it, no matter how much I hated it and how hard I tried. I wanted to live a good life. I wanted to be pure and clean. I wanted to look at myself in the mirror and actually love what I saw. All I saw back then, was worthlessness, ugly, unwanted, broken, used up, disgraced, wretched, darkness, disgusting, and a loser. Honestly, I am just giving you a PG rating of what my thoughts were really saying and screaming at myself.
I couldn’t get my act together if someone paid me a billion dollars. I was lost in a world filled with sin. Destruction was the path I was walking on, actually, I was running on a highway to hell.
Nobody, told me about Christ. I knew there was a GOD, but I didn’t know who He was or maybe I sometimes doubted He was really there. I definitely didn’t think He cared anything about me. But Satan has always been a liar, and his desire is to steal, kill and destroy. Well, God saved my life, He rescued me from the gates of hell, and yes, hell is a real place. I cried out to the LORD, from the depths of my soul. There was no special way to communicating with Him, I just said what I could. Who are You? Are You really there? If You are, then here I am, you can have me. Giving my life to Christ is the best decision I have ever made. It has not been an easy journey, but He is worth it all.
Dear LORD, please forgive me of all my sins. Show me how to live for You, teach me who You are. Take this heart of mine and give me a heart that loves You, hungers and thirsts for You.
For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life. John 3:16